Thoughts of an Angel Mommy, Chapter Three

About 9 years ago I was still healing from the loss of our identical twin daughters, after they died from Twin Twin Transfusion Syndrome.  I turned to the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Community of support on Facebook. At the time that is all the support I had, as the in-person counselor wasn't helpful and only made my husband and I feel worse.  I remember reaching out to several organizations that were available at the time for keepsakes. It was before Mother's Day that there was a new organization that was offering keepsakes in memory, even took money from loss parents, only to make an unfortunate announcement soon thereafter that there was a delay, and then basically ghosted everyone. People lost money, and were scammed out of keepsakes in memory of their children. My heart sank then and I felt so taken advantage of.  Since then I've been very careful in who I reach out to, especially when sending in items in memory of my children. I worry the same thing has happened ...

In the past nine years I’ve been a part of the child loss community supporting others.  The support I received months prior inspired me to create this page in memory of our identical daughters we lost from TTTS.  This is what I’ve learned.  Children lost due to miscarriage, abortion, still-birth, SIDS, those with a fatal or chromosomal diagnosis, children lost after birth or years later. These parents grieve.  Each person has had a different story to tell about their journey through loss.  To the parent who lost their child because their body almost died due to an ectopic pregnancy. I hear you and I support you.  To the parent who was a victim of rape, dearly wanted their child however had PTSD, and had an abortion. I hear you and I support you.  To the parent who wanted their child, but didn’t get the care they needed in a hospital, their baby was born early, alive, received no care, and died. I hear you and I support you.  To the parent who was ...

Loss Of Life A poem by E.Schwenke  5/6/2022 Would you mourn me if I died? Because of fetus-living-pride.  If my baby couldn’t make it or if my body was threatened to stay alive.  If I miscarried, my body aborted, would I go to prison?  That’s a brutal sentence, a terrible decision.  What if I was raped? Abused? A terminal fetal diagnosis?  Some of the hardest choices are made during tragic moments,  Those who’ve experienced this type of heartbreak know this.  At what cost? Who will live, who’s left to die? Should my child be left without a parent because I couldn’t save my life?  Unknowns awaiting, Yet fear that is taking, So many eyes blinded by ego, These choices are not yours to be making.  A parent left without a child, a sister, without one another.  Individuals and couples who seek help to have a child, grow their babies, science and hope on their side.  Left with a prison sentence if they don’t decide some of their micr...