Grief. August 2nd, 2022.

 Before I fall asleep.

Grief is losing many children.

Grief is losing family.

GRief is losing more children

Grief is losing family members.

Grief is the struggle in between and what you thought would be, is not.

Grief is watching your parent’s body slowly die…

Grief is three long months of terrible sleep.

Grief is loss.

Grief is the unknown.

Grief is the loss of control over a situation that is absolutely out of your control.

Grief is loss.

Losing my mother slowly has been one of the second hardest things I’ve had to go through .

Losing my daughter Noelle was one of the first hardest things I’ve had to go through .

I’m not ok but I’ll keep doing my best.

Emotions are surfacing every day.

Grief is the loss of what will be and what could be.

I felt a calling to write. This is the blur of exhaustion talking through emotions and exhaustion.

I’m so tired.

I feel like I’m already experiencing the grief of loss. Because I am.

Grief is normal, not taboo, and absolutely ok. I’m not alone. And I need kiddo to have time with others during this time too. This has been rough.

Grief is stress.

Grief is worry. M

Grief is showing how strong you are. M

I will not apologize for my thoughts. I need support. Our family needs support. It’s been a tough several years.

Grief is wanting the pain and hurt to go away.

It’s hard at times to live in grief.

Life is suffering. Buddhist thoughts. However not as much mindfulness right now due to stress and exhaustion. I’ll be ok. It’s been a rough threee months.

Exhaustion thoughts. Grief thoughts.

Meal train and busy boxes and time with kiddo in the future sounds like a good idea.

Now to share this before I fall asleep.

Real thoughts. Griefff thoughts.

Exhaustion thoughts.